Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Refocus...Being Bi-polar

I'm sitting in Chemistry right now realizing how much I hate engineering (sorry Jon). I'm wondering why I ever wanted to be an engineer and I think of the money. I am doing my budget to see what I need if I were to live on my own and I found that I can live off of what I make now and still have money to spend on the things I want. So why then do I want the money that is so associated with engineers. Because it's not enough. The flesh side of me wants to never have to worry about money, to always have everything I want, and that by achieving these things I'll aways be happy. The spiritual side of me wants to trust God in his plan (but first discovering what that plan is), never rely on my own means to survive, and serve him with out a lust for 'things'. Every Christian must have this bi-polar reaction to wanting what they don't have. I wish I had the guts and the knowledge to move into the woods with a tent and some tools and live for the rest of my life only going to town to buy clothes and more tools. This life is so full of unnecessary things that we don't need. Why do we need (not want) plasma screen TV's, 3 story houses for 4 people, one car for the summer and one for the winter, cell phones that play music and show pictures, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, shampoo that makes your hair curly or straight, cloning research, abortion, wars against people we don't even know, and cars that park themselves (I'm sorry but that has to be the stupidest thing I have ever heard of). I will never be able to understand this world or God's purpose for granting us free will until I am able to look at it from his view.

15 comments:

kat said...

good thinkin, nick!
but those cars are awsome---ur crazy

Jon Canler said...

Hey bro....no need to apologize to me. I dislike engineering as well. It just so happened to get me through college for free. And it got me a job until I find out what I need to do with my life.

Nick C. said...

Yeah I'm still searching for my purpose as well, hopefully psychology will at least motivate me to want to go to school.

TaylorW said...

Interesting scope on things Coop... I know your wrestlin' with what God wants for your life (as most of us @ UK)... Speaking of $$$ check out the book by Randy Alcorn titled: The Treasure Principle , this book is amazing and will change your perspective on material things and money in general.

Anonymous said...

true stuff nick. that's been something i've been pondering lately, so i'm glad you brought it up. stay strong in his will.

o yeah - i may be leaning towards kat. yes, those car are ridiculous, but they are pretty sweet anyway!

sarah said...

What you said is so true...we act as though our lives will end if we cannot have the "neccesities." -material things that really have no meaning. Alot of times we spend too much time thinking about all the stuff we want, when we should be getting closer to the Lord and learning new things about Him. Our relationship with Christ is like any human relationship in that must be continually learning about the other person in order for it to work! Great Post!

dustin said...

Maybe I can help, some.

God tells me I need to seek first His kingdom and He will take care of the rest. I have struggled very much with things that I "need."

If we are seeking the kingdom, which means humbly submitting ourselves as obedient before God and then doing what He commands, we need not be concerned with anything else. It may seem "better" to live in the woods away from everything "material."

If we have faith in God, we have to believe that God rewards those who are faithful to Him.(Hebrews 11) That means that God gives us good things, even things that it may seem wrong to have. Where would we draw the line in things we "need?" Really, all we need is food and an environment that won't kill us. Even having one car is beyond necessity, as well as having more than one pair of clothers or wives or anything.

I guess what I am saying is, don't struggle with the peripherals, struggle with whether or not your heart is completely resigned to Christ as your Lord and trust that every other circumstance in your life will be as God has willed it to be.

Woody said...

Great post Nick...as for finding purpose in life...remember that there is only one purpose in this life and that is to glorify God.

So, you now know your purpose, so the correct question for all of us is what exactly God wants me to do in fulfilling that purpose. Is it full-time vocational ministry, is it bein a psychologist, or an engineer, doctor, lawyer, farmer etc.

So, remember, don't ask...What is my purpose?...rather know your purpose is found in Isaiah 43:7 and all you must do is ask God how you are to join Him in making His name great among the nations...Malachi 1:11.

I will also say that having things is not bad as long as those things are not the focus of your life. If Christ is Lord and He blesses you with money or cars of land or a beautiful girl then turn those blessings into praise. I remember what C.S Lewis said. Don't look at the rays of sunlight, but follow those rays back to their source and be glad in it. (He said something like that)

we need one of those cars said...

you've obviously never seen jordan parallel park...

b. sok said...

comes to find out your blog is unblocked.

so good post. one of our books this year talked about this free-will stuff. it was pretty sweet.

Nick C. said...

Yeah some schools take the word crottles to the extreme. It's not that explicite.

griffee said...

good post nick and good reply and insight dustin. i think thats very true

Keith Walters said...

I agree with Woody you know your purpose, which is to glorify God. You are just in a stage where you need to choose the means by which that purpose is fulfilled. I placed "you need to choose" in emphasis because som many "Christians" make a mystery of God's will, when Scripture is clear that His will is to glorify Himself, you just need to choose how you are going to do that. The important thing is not how you do that but that you do something. Far too many people waste their lives figuring out what to do when God is saying "just do something, to my Glory."

On the theme of money: it can be a great thing when used to make much of God, but when used to make much of man it becomes sinful. So don't go live in a tent. Go make money and use that money for the purposes of God.

And yes I think cars parking themselves is stupid.

Keith Walters said...

Have you thought about Philosophy instead of Psychology? They both begin with a "P," sorry but that is random.

Nick C. said...

Keith, great to see you last week man.

Thanks for the advice, I am now re reading 'Don't waste your life' by the pied piper. it's great and has reopened my eyes to my purpose now i need to find what to do. i'm just waiting on him now, it'll come in good time but i'm learning patience as i go.